I’ve had a houseguest for the past week and so have been on hiatus from working on the memoir. I’m back at it now, and plan to take some writing time over the holiday weekend simply because I’m enjoying the work of teasing out a coherent story.
I’m not sure a life story feels coherent as we’re living it, especially for those of us who lead busy lives. When my kids were younger and i was working and Jerry and I had a marriage to tend to and I enjoyed doing things with friends and I had family at a distance I felt more like a performer keeping a lot of spinning plates in the air. My life story feels more coherent now because I’m looking back, and writing the narrative from point to point as I remember it.
I wonder how that lived experience fits with the belief that many Christians hold that God has a plan for them – i.e. a coherent story? There is one God in Christian belief, and about 7 billion people alive on the planet right now. That doesn’t count all the people who’ve ever lived, or will live. By any count, that’s a lot of individual plans.
I’m not trying to be sarcastic here, just curious. If any of you believe that God has a plan for your life, is that some sort of a metaphor? Or do you think it’s the literal truth? I can see the value in believing that your life unfolds according to a Supreme Being’s plan. That belief might remove the existential fear of suspecting that nobody knows what’s going to happen in the next five minutes, much less many years into the future, and that the responsibility for figuring out what to do is all on you.
I prefer the metaphor of an empty page, which doesn’t have meaning until I fill the page up with words. There’s something very freeing in the experience of being a writer.
Lots of great writers – Flannery O’Connor for example – were people of faith too, so I guess the choice of metaphor isn’t either/or. Plan or empty page or some combination of both; we all get to choose.
I have no idea what’s making me wax so philosophical on the eve of a long holiday weekend, but there it is. Your comments are welcome.